I didn’t really fall in love with makeup until I got to college.
I went through my heavy, caked-on foundation phase early, when I was 12 or 13, to help cover up my acne. But besides a stint with a frosty white cream eyeshadow (that creased in literal minutes) I didn’t pay a whole lot of attention to it.
I never knew how much makeup could boost my confidence and make me feel so kick-ass until I started experimenting with different looks in the college dorms with my roommates. I fell hard into a world of YouTube beauty gurus, beauty blogs, and xoVain.
Because I’m a gross old makeup hoarder, I actually have almost all the makeup I wore when I first got into makeup and beauty (which is about five years ago). So I thought I would go back, put on my go-to makeup look that made me feel my best back then, and see how it compares to the makeup I love today.
I was dedicated to my BareMinerals Original Foundation — the loose powder. I would buff it on for a medium-to-high-coverage and seal it all in with the Urban Decay De-Slick Setting Spray. And just to really make sure I wouldn’t get oily during the day, I would powder (and re-powder throughout the day) with the Rimmel Stay Matte Pressed Powder.
I was terrified of blush, bronzer, and highlighter. I stayed away from any facial color or dimension like it was the plague. One of my college roommates always said that she would look half-dead without blush, and I said I looked half-clown with it on.
For lipstick, I would either wear a clear lip balm or go for a fuchsia lip stain. My favorite was the Revlon Just Bitten Kissable Balm Stain (now the Colorburst Balm Stain) in the color Smitten.
My number-one favorite thing to do was play with eyeshadow. It was go big or go home — there were no day looks or night looks. It was all about the gold and brown smoky eye all the time.
The Urban Decay Naked Palette was my first big eye shadow purchase and I loved that thing like it was my very own baby-child. I would wear Half Baked all over the lid with Dark Horse in the outer corner, into the crease, and under my lower lashes. Oh, and tons of the Maybelline The Falsies Mascara.
Compared to how I wear my makeup now, it felt like putting on a security blanket that I just don’t need anymore.
Even though I had a lot of fun playing with makeup, and it made me so much more confident at the time, trying it back on made me realize that I was trying to cover my insecurities.
I used to be so scared of people seeing any of my flaws no matter what the size. I would cover up my mole, cover all my natural redness, and the spots on my skin. I was trying to take away attention from the things that bothered me so much by having people see something I felt good about: my eye makeup and lipstick.
Now that I’m a little older and more comfortable in my own skin, I like to wear a much lighter makeup and have my skin shine through. My go-to base at the moment is the Dr. Jart Waterfuse Beauty Balm. This has very little coverage and really just evens out some discoloration in my skin and gives it a pretty glow.
Blush is now also a must to liven up my face. I love red blushes that you can apply lightly for a low-key look, or at full pigmentation for a bold look. I’m using the ColourPop Blush in Never Been Kissed.
And now I love how bronzer can shape my face and give me a glow like I actually go outside sometimes. I still apply with a light hand to avoid looking like I’m just wearing the wrong shade of foundation. My favorite shade is in the Sleek MakeUP Face Form in fair.
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